A bit about me

My name is Heather and I'm married to... well, to R. I typically get a little too mushy when I try to describe him, but suffice it to say that I think he's the most amazing man in the world. We've been married since 2005 and it's just gotten better and better, even though the world has felt harsher and harsher. We both increasingly think we're the lucky one - we both increasingly think we married up. I'm so thankful. He is such an incredible gift!

He has two beautiful (grown) kids, but, to our great sorrow, we have not been able to have any together. This has been a more difficult issue than I care to describe here. (I've been writing a separate blog about that for a few years now, but I don't advertise that one very much. It's been good therapy though.) Those of you who know me well, already know - at least as best as you can - how much of a nightmare this has been. We seem to have reached the end of the line, unfortunately. We don't have the time or resources to go further. This is the broken dream I have to deal with, which results in a million more broken dreams. While I have found writing to be excellent and cheap therapy over the last many years of struggle and heartbreak, this new blog is not intended to focus on the heartbreak - but it is the context for finding myself seeking an attitude of new, whether I like it or not. I'm trying to move on, but the grief comes with me.

As for other not very fascinating tidbits, I also love to cook (and enjoy!) good food (and wine) with the people I love. Photography is something I've always loved, but have been getting a little more focused on (pun not intended) recently (part of my cheap therapy too, I think). I'm part of a weekly photo challenge with friends, which I'll probably post about here, as well. Another favorite activity is the summer community bocce league that R and I are in, along with some of our dear friends as teammates.

For the last nearly 14 years, I've worked at a non-profit health organization and totally jive with the mission, but I get frustrated and grumbly sometimes about the office shenanigans - and about being surrounded by beige carpet covered walls all day. It's just not natural. Meanwhile, R runs his own business, which I help him with when I can. It takes him away most weekends, unfortunately, but I'm so proud of him!! One day, I hope we can work it together, full-time.

Also, I've recently fallen head over heels in love with the sea... the Caribbean!!!  Mmm, I can't stop dreaming of being back there.

"But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope: The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end;  they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. “The Lord is my portion,” says my soul, “therefore I will hope in him.” The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him." 
(Lamentations 3: 21-25)

New every morning!